kono kicchu

I am writing it only for myself, so its Bangla and written using English alphabets...

Amer mon ektu o valo nai :(. Mazhe mazhe mone hoy aro onek dhorjo thakto amar; Allah amer sohay hon er amake sahajjo korun;

Baire onek bristi hocche, jhor jhor kore bristi....Er amar vetore onek kosto hocche onek onek kosto...

"ubantu";)

Yesterday, my midterm exams were over. Last exam was too good. I just finished it in 1hr and 15 min! and then revised and got a mistake in my paper! And it made me real happy cause I was always very lazy to revise my exam papers and hardly want to do that. Lots of things are happening in my life and in my country. So, though I thought that I would write about my conference in this post, but now I am not in mood of thinking of past. I am planing of printing of all the photos that I took there. Everyone wants to see those. Then I may want to write!
Anyways, I was talking with one of my chat friend and he is in army. He was talking about a upcoming project that they are going to launch in this October. Its based on making new markets of groceries and selling them a very low price then the current price rate in the markets. Through that, they can control the price of vegetables and other crops. Most liking part of this project for me is that, they are trying to give a good amount of money to the farmers for their crops. I think, the idea is fine and as the govt. already give them the permission, according to him, so it may start showing its effect from October. But what makes me irritate is that, I was asking him about some barriers that they may face while they will run the project; and he hardly can answer me the solutions. To me, it's sounds like he didn't do his homework! Then I started making lots of queries and made his life hell! ;)
When I was watching today's evening news in NTV, I found that they are focusing on this same issue;a Hillisha fish is selling at a price of 800/- TK which is more then $10 USD! And the current government recently band exporting Hilisha fish in India, cause fish traders are exporting it for $2usd! According to today's news, they still exporting it. I really can't understand why this things are happening in our country.
Apart from that, now I am learning using "ubantu", a Linux based operating system. "ubantu" means "humanity toward others"...is sponsored by Canonical Ltd, owned by South African Mark Shuttle worth; the name of the distribution comes from the African concept of ubuntu! That's sounds interesting.:) this operating system made for average users. hmmm. For this reason I find it user friendly and start liking it more then Windows!
In my office, all the computers have this operating system, and all are connected through Intranet. An intranet is a private computer network that uses Internet protocols, network connectivity to securely share part of an organization's information or operations with its employees!hmmmm;) Moreover, we are using some software, which are so advanced and user friendly that, what else my kind of tech lover may want. Our head office is in Malaysia, and they are monitoring all our activities from there! I think it's good that I start from a small multinational organization and I think it will help me to develop my professionalism.
Instead of this job and MBA, I am planing of doing a job of my own. I am start making a list of what I want to learn and which skills I want to develop to be what I want to be! lets see, how close I can be!
Today I want to watch Indian Idol III, and my favorite is Anteeka! She is a genuine performer and all other contestants have a fear of her performance cause she is so unpredictable! She got the chance in gala through wild card! I think, Allah makes those life real hell, who may be a real star in future. And I think that's fare enough;) only 15 min to go!1,2,3......;)

Inspiration

Today is a day full of good newses. :D I hope it will continue through out the year.(insallah and massallah). In the newspaper, I read that our current caretaker government is finalizing a deal with Indian govt. about export our goods in India with out tax. :D That's really a inspiring news for us. Cause, when I was visiting India, we had some biscuits, dal vaja and other Bangladeshi foods and when we shared that with Mr. Banerji[he was become our uncle! lots of discussion we did with him and we really missed him when we were going back.:D the topic started about godfather and ends in politics:)] he said that he never had this kind of taste biscuits ;).

Cheers to Bangladeshi govt and Indian govt. Moreover, now Bangladesh railway is started to rebuild some rail lines as broad gage. yahoooooo. that means we may have that kind of train like we traveled in India. OH, I love this care taker govt. May Allah bless them and long live care taker govt. Moreover, Bangladesh has signed in ASIAN railway agreement, so with in 2008-09, we, Asian can visit any country! I really like traveling:). If Asia also comes out with a same currency like the Euro and didn't required any visa or work permit to work in ASIA, that will open a door to lots of talented people to utilize their potential. And I always prefer a working environment where different people with different cultures are working together. I think thats creates a healthy environment to work. I wish that will happened very soon insallah.

While I was modifying my IGoogle site, I got a cool site with poems and presentations. The style of the presentation is same as I made in my LCP election :)
So, here is the poem of that site, author is unknown:(
BCC: I will describe about the rest of my journey of previous post ;0 very soon insallah.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the straggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

I really like it.

BCC: Bangladesh is now playing steady today.:)

I am Back!

Wow…After a long time, I am back. Again start writing my blog! My dear blog, trust me, though there wasn’t enough time to miss you, ;) but I missed you a lot. Hehehe.

Right this moment, while listening “ JHUM BARA BAR JHUM”, I am really confuse about from where should I start! From where should I start writing about my UK trip….hmmmm…Lets start from beginning.

12 th April:

After being waiting a lot for the final confirmation, UK Government at last confirm me that Yh I was also selected as the delegate.!!!! WOW..WOW..Is it a dream? I was asking myself! Well, Etha, well done! But now you need the travel bruiser!

20^th April:

They confirmed that, Yes, my application was strong enough to get the travel bruiser!!! Yes, Yes, Yes… now they are advising me to apply for VISA.

For UK Visa, I needed 9000 taka(63 pound) Cash, And I had only 3500 taka. It took another 17 days to save that money. I only told my mom and one of my friends about it.

(bcc: that’s the month I departed from AIESEC, a month full of surprisesL)

7^th May: The day I applied for VISA. Ameena (One of my AIESEC friends, now she resigned) told me that, I had to take photos with white back ground. To me it’s already late. Cause those who were sponsoring my travel and other expenses, they wrote me to inform them as soon as I could, and the travel booking would be cancel after 28 th April! Now, Look at my photos! Oh its with Blue back ground! YAAR, I feel like I was dead.

It was 1.30 pm and I was in Uttara, I had to go to Gulshan before 4.00. OH, then I took photos in a studio after two years! 2.30pm, hey I got my pp size photo, with white background! But, oh look at me!

3.00pm : hey brother! Can u please tell me where is Uday tower?

3.05pm: in UDAY tower! Where is VFS? Excuse me, can u please tell me where is UK visa office? The information officer replied, oh you have to go to “** tower!”

For a while, I was thinking “really? But how!!!I called VFS, and they told me that I have to come to UDAY tower! They are working here and they are giving wrong information! how come? Is this guy telling me the right direction!? Confusion.” I just snidely go through the chart while talking with the guy! Yh he was right, there was no VFS.

3.15pm: Oh I am in front of VFS, waiting in QUEUE.

3.35pm: VFS officer was telling me that I would know about the result at 16 th MAY! Dam, year, its too late. I told him, "But my conference is on 22^nd May, My departure is 21^st MAY. isn’t it too late? ". He replied, "No, you have enough time!" DAM, dam.

May 12^th : Got a email from IAIN , asking me about the progress of my visa. He was man for whom we, all the youth delegates, could participate in such a big event.

May 15^th: At last, I got my VISA! Wow, it’s a multi transit visa, for Six months. Yahoo..

I reached at home 4.30pm. My mom was at the down stairs. MOOOOM, Look, Just showing her my VISA page!!! Hihihi. Then I emailed them my visa number…

May 17 th : My mom was the only person who knew about it. She was so tensed if my dad gave me permission to attend this or not!

10.00pm: I was at my dad’s room, discussing about my MBA program. After that, I just gave my dad to read the invitation letter of the Assembly. Hmmm.. They would take care of my delegation fees, food, accommodation! Everything there for seven days! Hmm, then My dad told me,” But you need plane fare!”

Then I opened the second page, hmm they were paying all my travel expenses!! Then he asked, ”but you need VISA”. I smiled, and said I got the VISA too. After seeing my VISA, confusedly looking at me and asking me "then what you want?! ". I said, "Dad I need you permission…"..after that, how any father can deny to give his daughter permission to go to Scotland all alone for 7 days! :D

May 18^th: 11pm : I got my ticket, confirmed my AUNT (my mom’s youngest sister) that I didn’t get the schedule according to my preferences, but I will try to change my return ticket for LONDON. Don’t worry.

May 19^th to MAY 21^st: the time flied like missile. I hardly could trace it!

May 21 st :

9.35pm: I was in business class! Thanks to my Emirate's friend! It happened for one of my unknown friend, he was working in Emirate, and saw me in university, and knew that I was in AIESEC, and he was too. He was so friendly and so sweet. His name probably ! “Maruf”. He didn’t have his name card yaar. That’s the first name I am confused about and I was kicking myself in my mind for that. He was the nice person number ONE>

Hey I could talk with my sis and my mom! from the plane! Well done GP. :D My mom was crying[ she always cried and worried, when ever I stayed outside my home!!! My sis and brother named me “RAJKUMARI”[princess] as the whole family was there while I was going for INDIA by BUS for AIESEC conference” hihihih.] But this time, mom and dad!MOM, I love you too. I understand her feelings! And I am in business class! Thanks to ALLAH for the blessing.

9.45pm: Plane was start running for take off. I got a beautiful lady with me as my mate through out the journey. I look outside and it seemed that all the blue starts were smiling on the ground. That’s the beginning of my journey!

Oh, I am tired. Have MBA classes up to 10pm. Reached home at 11pm. I hardly can woke up in the morning now a days. I used to wake up at 1 pm in bd time! Which is 8am in the morning in LONDON! ;(

BCC: Now i was checking mail at my hotmail acc as its full of 442 mails! Well NOW I get a email from my chines friend JOYCE, AND I feel so happy...we had a great time in Scotland and also in LONDON. She was in my aunt house for one night there and we had lots of fun.. and we all(my aunt, uncle, my cousin and me) watch GURU...I at last managed original DVD of GURU..hehehe..Ameena's DAD bought that for me from INDIA!

And I also get a message from an old friend..who was apologising for the blander he did...its really apritiating that someone realize their misdead. But.... I don't know why I am feeling so sad, and having unbearable pain inside my heart...why I am crying..I don't know.. I don't understand...I should forgive..But I don't know when I can! I wish I will forgive that person soon. :) That much I can pray for u and for myself.

Talking with Starts!

I got an assignment from a software farm; and beside my preparation for exam, I am trying to complete it. This is my first professional assignment as a computer engineer. So, Etha! Good luck! When I started it, for first 35 modules, so much time was required that I was near to loose my patience. But now, my quality and quantity of work are increasing and yes, I am happy. ;D

Instead of writing for my blog [I am writing on a diary; as here is no electricity and I can’t run my pc through IPS ;( ] I should work on ABBYY now. Oh! In my room, from my bed, you can see the whole sky, through the window! And I can see the sun rise and moon set (!) too. Though I hardly wake up before 8am! So, lying on bed and talking with the starts in the dark, at this late night (12.09 am) is really heavenly.

And I am talking about my college days with them! When I was in Holy Cross, Me and Eva used to go to college at 6.30 am, as my dad was posted in Sunamgang and my “Boro chacha”(my dad’s elder brother) used to drop us college while he was going for his office( he is a an exceptional renowned boss of his bank who used to come so early; like 5.30am or 6.00; office remains open at that time for him; so no wonder we went that early!) So, instead of taking Tiffin for the afternoon, we took breakfast with us! Hahahaha.

We were the rising bird of the morning; trees and real birds were the only company we had! But sometimes, Shilla Ahmed( Yh ! yh ! yh! The famous actress and daughter of Humayun Ahmed ;)] came at 7.05am. And then we had some “ jompesh adda”(gossiping) . She was really a very nice person to being with and so down to earth. I feel those who are really better nature human being; they hardly show you or remind you there position.

Sister Sikha, Sister Pollen, my games Miss, Mrs. Kabir( she was the final decision maker of our drama team; who would do what roll,bla bla bla), our Vice Principal Rina das( she used to call everyone “DEAR”; even when she was annoyed or forbidding someone!! One of the DAM smart persons I have seen:D), famous Sarker sir…wow what teachers I had!

Sister Sikha was not only my favorite, she was the queen of the hearts of our entire batch( because of her nature);That’s we all realized asking each other about which essay they wrote in the Board exam; everyone wrote about her as “My favourite teacher!”. I wanted to admit in Holy Cross cause when I first time entered in the college, I saw lots of girls are playing lots of games(You will be amazed if I take you to our games room!) : basket balls, cricket, handballs and so on. go No, I am not very good at those; I will prefer badminton or baseball. Yes, we often played baseball (I learn that there) in my college.

When I am writing this blog, all my those sweet memories are rush into my heart and …If my Allah (god) comes to me and ask me, “if I permit you to go back in any time of your life; then where do u want to go?”

I will reply,“I want to go back to my college life, as I was!”

Thumbs is Here!

Today is the historic MAY DAY. Today is public holiday here. I thought it is same for every country. But yesterday I got an exception. One of my friends in Ireland told me that, 7th May is tribute as May Day there

At night, I was watching news on Channel I; one news strikes in my mind based on farmers’ rights, made by Shykh Siraj, one of the most renowned Bangladeshi, who always highlighted our farmers’ issues. “Hridoye Mati O Manush” [translate: my soil and people!! I hope it’s not that bad!] is one of his famous documentary programmed on the contemporary agro-economics and development.

Our country’s consistence GPD growth exits because of our workers. May Day is actually celebrated for them. But after watching today’s news on channel-I , I find out that 40% of our population is worker, 3 core, majority of which are farmers, garments’ workers, or the people who are doing different kind of jobs abroad and pulling our country to move forwards. And most of them didn’t know anything about this day; and they don’t even have any registered organization through which they can at least bargain for their rights. I really feel bad for this. They are the real hero behind our country’s progress. And they even don’t want much from life, but hardly have they got that.

3 days back, I was talking with a junior student of BBA in my university. She was upset cause, here hardly people trust each other[that was the first time I meet with her and we talked], for a while I was shocked. Most of the people, now a days, are very self centered.

Most of the people take any initiative only if they are benefited. We are only thinking for the short time, that we may pass through to live in our life. If, we just stop thinking for only ourselves, and take some initiatives for others, then only we can change us, can change our surroundings. If we start doing that then only we may get our dream land for which we always grudge! So, Thumbs is Here!

Realization

Small things really matter in my life. A new beginning of another part of my journey is just ahead. And when I was drawing deep inside my soul, I feel like I was waiting for this.

When u have to walk and there is no road to walk on, how do u feel? Searching for a new thing is always interesting. While I was talking today, at this night (2.15am), with my sis, she identify that, I have always interest for exceptions. And that’s the base from where all the problems start from. Most important thing is that, what ever I want to do, I need to enjoy that, or love that. Or at least I have to have some interest on that. I am good at only those activities that I find something new, interesting, where you can solve problems your ways, and create or implement your ideas. But that can’t bring the consistency.

Now, some of the renowned people are telling me that, I have to understand what others want from me or what the situation demands. Mostly, I have to learn how to hide myself in a crowd! I also realize the urgency of that. Yes, to change a system, you need to be a part of the systems. I knew that, but I can’t be that. Living in uncertainty is never being easy. But that’s also a part of life. This time I will also be the part of the system.

I have taken this quiz test 3^rd time in a raw and the result is still same!

So lets share it ..IF I were in 24 I would be..

You are part Jack Bauer. You are an aggressive and heroic figure. You think rules are only for kids, and try to break them at least once everyday (or hour). You like to get help from others especially your best friends. To complete a task, you are willing to do whatever it takes - be it the right way or the wrong one[ is it?!]. Also, you could totally kick Chuck Norris' ass.

You are part Bill Buchanan. You are a law abiding citizen and in your world, rules are the driving force behind anything and everything. Your leadership charisma is something talked about by others, and instead of doing things differently you do different things. You have an uncanny knack of staying calm in tense situations and your tone is testimony to that. Keep the cool attitude and you will surely overcome the most perilous situations.

If I were a Disney princess I would be Belle and Cinderella

Its’ a tie!

You are part Belle (I forget the story..Hihihih) you are strong [I love to be], deep (like deep blue sea! Just kidding...) and you are not a slave to petty superficial things. You are independent and allow yourself to see inner beauty without sacrificing your values (it is the most difficult task now!!). You are almost too good of a person!!!(Oh!! what a pampering!)

You are part Cinderella!! You are hard working and never complain, however, your trust is sometimes misplaced (who didn’t have this experience??) and people sometimes take advantages of you[i really helpless about it..but improving hahha]. Still, you are beautiful inside and out (AHA ;)), and one day you will realize it and find true love!!(hey that’s sound real boring)

LOL..:D That’s interesting! Do you want to know Which Disney Princess you are? Check it out www.brainfall.com

Some of these words are so true that I am speech less ;) hihihih…

Old memories!!!

14 th April was the NOBO BORSHO( beginning of Bengali new year).....But for the first time I didn't go out of my home in this day! I just don't want to!(mom was really sad for that)... ..

The day starts with "Pani vhat"( rice+water!) and different types of "Vartas"[ I really like to eat :) but can’t explain you what type of food this is!] and reading "Chokro" by Sirsendu. After a long long time, a day just for myself, whatever way I want to spend it,

I can!!!

I like Eva’s Shari, and the way she dressed for PAYLA Baishak (1st day of Bengali New Year!) and she was prepared for the concert at My University! L.R.B (a very famous band) came to our concert and they announced to go for hunt of talented singers(!!) as they were very much impressed of our singing! I wish I was there! I really missed that!

Though it’s not her first time at any of my university concert, and most of AIUBIANs know that I have a TWIN. But still….One girl (I couldn’t find out who is she) came to Eva and ask her, did we know each other? Eva smiled ;D(as we have to often face this situation! hihihih) and said “No”! Then the girl said, “But I knew a girl like you!” Then Eva replied,” But she has short hair!” The girl looked at her shocked! My sis smiled (with all her teeth) and said “We are twin!” And my sis’s friends (her gang) didn’t understand what’s going on! (ha-ha)

Being twin is not bad! And recently we both are missing our school & college days’ funs that we had! I was leader of Trojans’ and Eva was Spartans’ (anti party)! As it was our 1^st year of college and most of girls of Holy Cross didn’t learn yet how to recognize us (as my hair was not short that time; D) So most of the time, they told Eva about the plan that we had for the annual sports to beat Spartans (thinking that its ETHA!) and same to her group! Though after six months, if someone told us “ Oh! You are twin!”, then my friends got very angry and asked us, ” you are twin?!” as we are just opposite of each other.

I was really sad today. But if you have some true friends around you…it doesn’t take time to smile :) again!...

Ikrra Bikra Dhum!!

I have tremendous pain in my gum, as my wisdom teeth (akkel dath) are start growing. I hardly can open my mouth while I want to eat!! Its seem like that when ever you have some knowledge of wisdom(!!), to express it, you have to take some pain!! (Just kidding, I need to go to the Dentist! you can check out this site http://www.doctorndtv.com [if you are a doctor then u should check it out!] hey that’s an Indian web! I didn't notice. And at last I watch "Guru" today! Some of the incidents and dialogs remind me the film "Aviator". But I like the Hindi flavor as well...)

Yesterday night, Bangladesh again lost against England :( While I was watching the match under the blanket (: D) I wonder how could I write about this match when my country is loosing! Then suddenly I realize, how Bangladeshi sports reporters may feel while they have to write about the Match!! Though our bowlers have played really well otherwise why England has to take 45 overs! I don't know if the semifinal dream is yet over or not! But fortune favors the Brave! And what ever our boys lost or won.....They are brave enough as tigers! : D

Last eight overs, England needed eight runs to win and next 3 overs were median!! Then I though, if we can't take nay more wicket lets not give them any opportunity to run! Even the last deciding run was not easy for the English to take; D

But still I am sad and now we need result!! Well not only Bangladeshi cricketers are changed! Supporters as well!
Cheers to us!!!

WIN ....WIN and ..WIN....

wow wow wow.....

Everyone knows what happened at 7th APRIL.YH we won against South Africa!

I was really upset, the way our boyz were playing after entering the super eight.But I never loss my faith on them.

That day, my TV card was not working!and my twin sis was not yet come from her medical.So, i wonder..what to do..! Cricinfo was the only hope left for me!(but instead of watching u r reading ..u can understand my feeling!)
While i saw the score 32/0, i felt like ,"starting is good,they are really now playing today!can't we WIN!!!"

After Bangladesh lost her 1st wicket, me and my sis started watching the game at her room[thank god her ward was over:)]
Trust me when ever Bangladesh lost a wicket, i was just thinking of who is LEFT! I think whole nation was thinking like same....and praying for BD team!
Aftab, Ashraful and Mashrafi(pagla) ...three bating heroes of the day! At the last over Ashraful needed 13 runs...me and Eva(my sis)were thinking like 6 balls.....ASH had to play either 3fours and 1run or 1six+1four+3ones!.....
but ASH was out at the first ball of the over! I feel so sad for him..only 13 runs away from his another century....87 out of only 83 balls!!!!!!!

But apart from that i like the way he leads other to bat at the crease..that's what we desire from him all the time.......and first time i felt like now ASH is showing that he is no more immature

After we got the victory...i was jumping on Eva's BED! and she was trying to sleep..heewaa..
Well I wish i could also join the celebrating team at TSC..cell phone was the last hope to shout with friends!:(

Well,in the evening, most of the boyz had coloured hair!(as last night was holy ;)_and BD Jerseys are all over the campuses...
I felt so excited that i decided to write blog very seriously!!hahaha

Nahid was telling me.."well that's nice that u r not start playing CRICKET!!!" ;)

well through out the MATCH..one thing made me proud..and that is, the whole stadium was shouting "BANGLADESH..BANGLADESH...."and we can hear it !! so LOUD! (one can easily think that they are playing in BANGLADESH!!)

MY dear TIGERS..I am really very proud of U....:D

Todays to tomorrow

HEy....

I have come back from APXLDS......

One of the most life changing experience that i have..till..now....

This is the first time i ever went outside Bangladesh.....and get the opportunity to have friends from different countries......and ......!!!

After an international conference i am now again focusing on myself!..instead of focusing on AIESEC or other matters....wow...i just feeling that i am getting myself again.

Before APXLDS it seems that i was lost and that i realised when i was in AP....

Oh ap...ap...ap...............:D

This conference makes me practical....rather then emotional...what i was actually and i learn to live today then tomorrow.......

Well about writing what i learnt from this conference would never end....

So lets share something different from learning and .bla bla bla

This is the 1st 26Th MARCH( our independence day) .......and we were not in our land....

We were in the train travelling from Hyderabad to Kolkata.......(like we were in FAR FAR land....;))

Me, Nil, Santo, Somikh...find out that "hey Bangladesh is Now in 2nd round of world cup Cricket for the 1st time ever and today is our Independent day!!!!!!!!!!"..and where we are!!!!!!

We started missing our country so much....feeling like..yaar..where we are!!......Kothay amer Sonar Bangla........Ah.......hmmmmmmm

We started singing all the Songs that we knew(definately the songs that had written for BANGLADESH....hehehehe.......)

This feeling encouraged us to sing all the songs that we knew......and After a looooon loooong time we realized that, how true it is to realize that .............


" o..amar..desher..mati..tomer..tore..thekai ..matha...."....sorry only bangali people can read it :D

we all really love our country so much......but we just hardly got the opportunity to realize that............."

And you know....i find out that our mother toung is so sweet....(misti..in BANGLA)..and some emotions are really hard to express in other langauges but so easy in bangla and its so humourous..that i have to say ...AH..JOSS....

amar Bangladesh.......ami tomake oneeeeeeeeeeeeek ....valo bashi...................:D

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