"If It's Going to Be Its Up to Me"

I am Somebody. I can do something. I will make it Happen, I believe I will succeed. I will do what only I can and must do. I will take charge and I will take control. I will assume leadership of self. "The Force of faith in Allah and the belief in me"

To look at my dreams, set my goals to  keep my mission on course, because I believe  inside me is that Force. I will not be intimidated into silence and retreat. I will not be manipulated by prejudice of any kind. I will challenge the boundaries that would limit my goals and my dreams which I have pathetically and pitifully believed for so long. Example: I'm too shy'.

I will not be fenced in by these negative assumptions. I will not allow frustration to make me cash in and give up and quit. I'm under New Orders from my Higher Power who tells me "If it’s going to come true - it’s up to you" To whom I respond, "I am, I can, I will".

I will not indulge in negative fantasies that distract, depress, defuse or defocus my attention, thereby taking me off course. I will face my fears of failure and accomplish something wonderful anyway. I will not allow problems, pressure, pain, negative forecasts, and facts and figures to discourage me, or become my excuse for quitting and distract me from my dreams.

I will let my faith in Allah and I am in control of every decision I make and every action I take. I will let My Hopes lead me; I will not surrender leadership to my hurts, or lack of resources. Allah is in control of the present and the future. Allah is at work in me, giving me the will and the power to achieve my purpose.

I believe that I have received much from Allah so I must give something back by accomplishing something worthwhile before I die. I owe this to my Lord and Savior, parents, family and friends. I believe that with divine inspiration and courage, I can manipulate and turn:

Obstacles into Opportunities

Stumbling blocks into Stepping stones

Problems into Creative Possibilities

Mistakes can become my most Trusted Teachers

Failure become the Key to Unlock New doors

I believe in Hope, I am addicted to Hope. Hope is an emotional reaction that promises life but can't guarantee that all of its promises will be fulfilled. Hope is my decision. It will be completed, will be  fulfilled and it will keep  me alive and alert. I believe Allah is and will always be Alive. He is way ahead of me maneuvering in the silence and the shadows. I know he really cares for me and I will trust Allah. Today, or maybe next week, I will encounter new forces that will become Sources to lead my adventure to the break-through it needs.

"If it’s to Be It’s Up To Me"

Right that's what called positive frame of mind and that's what it should be. Everything depends on me. I want to have a life that when I write about it I dazzle. And you know it’s not easy to dazzle me!

"PLAY 'EM STRAIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU"

What a way I started today: woke up before my alarm rang!!! Seems like miracle till now. I was very happy.. Wasn’t tired, not feeling drowsy; and then everything seemed turn into opposite direction. One of the worse days in my life; I was about to have my breakfast. It was about 7:30 am. Just about to have a bite; lol..Then I had my brunch at 11 am.

I wanted to write this post with this name, “PLAY 'EM STRAIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU"...but now I am really happy that I am writing my blog and with the name.

I have finished a book, last week, by Frank Bettger, named: “How I multiplied My Income and Happiness in Selling” one of the best book from my collection. An idea, he learned in baseball that he had used every day in selling; that came from the greatest brain that ever played baseball: John McGraw!

I was applying that for last couple of days. And it worked;

I was late by two hours to pick my dad from office;

What I did?

I just received his calls every time within one ring;

Informed my location;

Gave an estimate time to reach which I couldn't make;

Let him understand that I was really trying to make it;

What was the outcome?

He only called twice / thrice during the time.

Understood my sincerity and wasn't upset: and that the best part for me.

Now days, I start praying 5 times in a day at accurate time. I read that "you will be changed, inside and out. That is the work of Allah in our lives." SubhanAllah. I feel more disciplined in my day to day activities after that.

Another beautiful concept of this book is as follows:

"Frank Bettger's 13 WEEK Self Organizer"

"Why should do something for nothing"

"The Dollars and cents value of a call"

and so more..Reading this book is like talking with Bettger himself; it’s like listening lots of stories (I love stories") and which I will never forget. It's the development, that begins and more importantly I want it and I am learning through it. So, I am starting playing straight and in front of Me.

Random Thoughts...part I

For the first time, today, I felt like: life might be not that difficult, that I always thought of it.

I start implementing a new routine for my life. I woke up at 3:40 am today: D. Well, well, but didn't read the texts that I thought I would read! lol

Umm, not bad; as it's just a beginning. I will start reading from 6:30 am. Tried to read a self development book that I recently got from a new friend: but, hmmm, seems like, it's not yet my cup of tea. I heard a bird is singing near my window; man! and it's not the regular crow! lol 

That's the advantage of waking up early. Again, I heard its singing. :-D cool. Now, feeling a bit drowsy...lol

Some habits that I am going to implement:

1.     Scheduling,

2.     Drinking 2 Liters of water every day,

3.     Bringing back the workout habit again,

4.     Eating fruits and lots of vegetable,

5.     Trying to get rid of laziness that I have lol,

6.     Evaluating my activities and myself!

7.     Listening News all types,

8.     Reading newspaper (i always do lol),

9.     Writing regularly into my blog and make it a habit

10. Taking care of myself: P according to my brother that should be my 1st priority! he he he

Oh...I want my breakfast & read news paper ..cya...:D

The Cow and the Pig!

There was once a man who was very rich and very miserly at the same time. The villagers disliked him intensely. One day he said to them, "Either you're jealous of me or you don't understand my love of money-God alone knows. But you dislike me; that much I know. When I die, I won't take anything with me. I will leave it all for others. I will make a will, and I will give everything to charity. Then everyone will be happy."


Even then people mocked and laughed at him. The rich man said to them, "What is the matter with you? Can't you wait a few years to see my money go to charity?"


The villagers didn't believe him. He said, "Do you think I'm immortal? I'll die like everyone else, and then my money will go to charities." He couldn't understand why they didn't believe him.



One day he went for a walk. All of a sudden it started raining heavily, so he took shelter under a tree. Under this tree he saw a pig and a cow. The pig and the cow entered into conversation, and the man overheard what they were saying.



The pig said to the cow, "How is it that everybody appreciates you and nobody appreciates me? When I die, I provide people with bacon, ham and sausage. People can also use my bristles. I give three or four things, whereas you give only one thing: milk. Why do people appreciate you all the time and not me?"



The cow said to the pig, "Look, I give them milk while I'm alive. They see that I am generous with what I have. But you don't give them anything while you're alive. Only after you're dead do you give ham, bacon and so forth. People don't believe in the future; they believe in the present. If you give while you are alive, people will appreciate you. It is quite simple."




From that moment on, the rich man gave all he had to the poor.

Whispers of the night

walking down the street
with an empty feeling
thoughts of you flood my mind
just as the heavens above opened up;

lost and looking for answers
dreams and hopes that was once
within reach, now seems
a million miles away;

sitting next to the rain splattered window,
watching the shadow of darkness slowly fade away,
the words to express my pain linger in the back of my mind
kept locked up within me, unable to escape the imaginary fence that i built around;

i cornered the fears that restrained my emotions,
bridging the distance between you and me,
i took a giant leap into the dream
that i wanted to become a reality;

gathering strength, i said the three words,
that had been waiting to explode from within me,
everything that i tried to hide from you for so long
finally tumbled out of the closet and into the open;

as the distant roar of the thunder
wakes me up from the passionate slumber,
i crawl closer trying to be next to you,
to hold you close,
and to hold you tight;

as the lovely night slowly
gives way to a beautiful morning,
still entwined in each other’s arms,
softly whispering to the special one,
who made a dream into a reality
i just realize that...

If You Forget Me

If You Forget Me

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

--------Pablo Neruda
---------:D ah it should be F. A . Khan lol

OLD POEMS

The original bangla version of these poems were published in 1999 and 2000. Thanks to Meher Nigar MIM and Reema Akhter for their special contribution ......

" YOU"

In the dim moonlight, at midnight,

When suddenly the freezing dawn wind blows,

Or,

The transparent daylight of autumn,

When it touches you,

As if I wake up.

At that moment.

At the midst of this tiring life,

Something rose from the past, some lost memories,

Which makes some fleeting loneliness,

Which reminds me of You.

Then,

Opening the access of the desire heaven,

Then I come close to you, very close to you!

In your untamed hair,

In the blowing light wind,

In the sunshine,

While I surprise you,

Do you feel me, only me?

If you don't find me in your thoughts,

If you are missing me,

Then

Walk along the dew drenched field.

You will find me in each dew drop,

And I will find you too.

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“EKUSHE”,

--in memories of 21 February, 1952


When,
Dawn breaks over the world,
that’s the time everyone knows
Ekushe has come.
Shaheed Minars are covered with flower petals,
To remember the occasion.
On this dusty path gathers
Hundreds of the young and old.

Again the shadow of sorrow instigates,
As the deep secret in one's heart is woken up again.
The silence awakens suddenly around.
And the scent of the blood of those Martyrs lingers in the air.
All life suddenly seems to stop,
In front of this monument.

In a short time everything around, loses its liveliness.
It becomes lonely, silent.

With a sad and broken heart, people standing …
Suddenly abandon their mundane lives
only for a single hour, on the specific day, for this gathering.
For an instant, this emotion is felt by the hearts of young people.

They urge to all the Martyrs,
To Wake up again,
To Wake up in their hearts.
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