On going life.....!

I am really happy that after a long days I again started reading this book: "Goals - How to Get Everything You Want-Faster Than You Ever Thought Possible"; I downloaded this at the beginning of this month but couldn't manage to finish it. This month is about to end and when I look back, it seems like a month full of dissatisfaction and discomfort. Actually today I learn if there is no one or nothing to motivate myself, only I, myself can motivate me. I have to be come and cool. I have to get back myself. It wasn't me whom i was talking with, watching everyday in my room's mirror. Thanks to Allah, at least I realize the things.

This book reminds me to forbid three things which are :

1. Not to blame others.
2.Always admit own responsibility.
3.No more excuses.

I have to take charges in my life.




Setting my goals..................

It is very important to set goals in life. I have only 2 goals right now to achieve in this upcoming 15 days. Some books can really change a person's life. I recently talk with one of my dear one, who was really frustrated about the life; Only spending 2 hours and motivating for setting goals, can help some one to being charged and positive about life! Wow.. amazing....I really enjoyed that transformation. Today, I am really missing my friends and some of my colleagues

kono kicchu

I am writing it only for myself, so its Bangla and written using English alphabets...

Amer mon ektu o valo nai :(. Mazhe mazhe mone hoy aro onek dhorjo thakto amar; Allah amer sohay hon er amake sahajjo korun;

Baire onek bristi hocche, jhor jhor kore bristi....Er amar vetore onek kosto hocche onek onek kosto...

"ubantu";)

Yesterday, my midterm exams were over. Last exam was too good. I just finished it in 1hr and 15 min! and then revised and got a mistake in my paper! And it made me real happy cause I was always very lazy to revise my exam papers and hardly want to do that. Lots of things are happening in my life and in my country. So, though I thought that I would write about my conference in this post, but now I am not in mood of thinking of past. I am planing of printing of all the photos that I took there. Everyone wants to see those. Then I may want to write!
Anyways, I was talking with one of my chat friend and he is in army. He was talking about a upcoming project that they are going to launch in this October. Its based on making new markets of groceries and selling them a very low price then the current price rate in the markets. Through that, they can control the price of vegetables and other crops. Most liking part of this project for me is that, they are trying to give a good amount of money to the farmers for their crops. I think, the idea is fine and as the govt. already give them the permission, according to him, so it may start showing its effect from October. But what makes me irritate is that, I was asking him about some barriers that they may face while they will run the project; and he hardly can answer me the solutions. To me, it's sounds like he didn't do his homework! Then I started making lots of queries and made his life hell! ;)
When I was watching today's evening news in NTV, I found that they are focusing on this same issue;a Hillisha fish is selling at a price of 800/- TK which is more then $10 USD! And the current government recently band exporting Hilisha fish in India, cause fish traders are exporting it for $2usd! According to today's news, they still exporting it. I really can't understand why this things are happening in our country.
Apart from that, now I am learning using "ubantu", a Linux based operating system. "ubantu" means "humanity toward others"...is sponsored by Canonical Ltd, owned by South African Mark Shuttle worth; the name of the distribution comes from the African concept of ubuntu! That's sounds interesting.:) this operating system made for average users. hmmm. For this reason I find it user friendly and start liking it more then Windows!
In my office, all the computers have this operating system, and all are connected through Intranet. An intranet is a private computer network that uses Internet protocols, network connectivity to securely share part of an organization's information or operations with its employees!hmmmm;) Moreover, we are using some software, which are so advanced and user friendly that, what else my kind of tech lover may want. Our head office is in Malaysia, and they are monitoring all our activities from there! I think it's good that I start from a small multinational organization and I think it will help me to develop my professionalism.
Instead of this job and MBA, I am planing of doing a job of my own. I am start making a list of what I want to learn and which skills I want to develop to be what I want to be! lets see, how close I can be!
Today I want to watch Indian Idol III, and my favorite is Anteeka! She is a genuine performer and all other contestants have a fear of her performance cause she is so unpredictable! She got the chance in gala through wild card! I think, Allah makes those life real hell, who may be a real star in future. And I think that's fare enough;) only 15 min to go!1,2,3......;)

Inspiration

Today is a day full of good newses. :D I hope it will continue through out the year.(insallah and massallah). In the newspaper, I read that our current caretaker government is finalizing a deal with Indian govt. about export our goods in India with out tax. :D That's really a inspiring news for us. Cause, when I was visiting India, we had some biscuits, dal vaja and other Bangladeshi foods and when we shared that with Mr. Banerji[he was become our uncle! lots of discussion we did with him and we really missed him when we were going back.:D the topic started about godfather and ends in politics:)] he said that he never had this kind of taste biscuits ;).

Cheers to Bangladeshi govt and Indian govt. Moreover, now Bangladesh railway is started to rebuild some rail lines as broad gage. yahoooooo. that means we may have that kind of train like we traveled in India. OH, I love this care taker govt. May Allah bless them and long live care taker govt. Moreover, Bangladesh has signed in ASIAN railway agreement, so with in 2008-09, we, Asian can visit any country! I really like traveling:). If Asia also comes out with a same currency like the Euro and didn't required any visa or work permit to work in ASIA, that will open a door to lots of talented people to utilize their potential. And I always prefer a working environment where different people with different cultures are working together. I think thats creates a healthy environment to work. I wish that will happened very soon insallah.

While I was modifying my IGoogle site, I got a cool site with poems and presentations. The style of the presentation is same as I made in my LCP election :)
So, here is the poem of that site, author is unknown:(
BCC: I will describe about the rest of my journey of previous post ;0 very soon insallah.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the straggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

I really like it.

BCC: Bangladesh is now playing steady today.:)

I am Back!

Wow…After a long time, I am back. Again start writing my blog! My dear blog, trust me, though there wasn’t enough time to miss you, ;) but I missed you a lot. Hehehe.

Right this moment, while listening “ JHUM BARA BAR JHUM”, I am really confuse about from where should I start! From where should I start writing about my UK trip….hmmmm…Lets start from beginning.

12 th April:

After being waiting a lot for the final confirmation, UK Government at last confirm me that Yh I was also selected as the delegate.!!!! WOW..WOW..Is it a dream? I was asking myself! Well, Etha, well done! But now you need the travel bruiser!

20^th April:

They confirmed that, Yes, my application was strong enough to get the travel bruiser!!! Yes, Yes, Yes… now they are advising me to apply for VISA.

For UK Visa, I needed 9000 taka(63 pound) Cash, And I had only 3500 taka. It took another 17 days to save that money. I only told my mom and one of my friends about it.

(bcc: that’s the month I departed from AIESEC, a month full of surprisesL)

7^th May: The day I applied for VISA. Ameena (One of my AIESEC friends, now she resigned) told me that, I had to take photos with white back ground. To me it’s already late. Cause those who were sponsoring my travel and other expenses, they wrote me to inform them as soon as I could, and the travel booking would be cancel after 28 th April! Now, Look at my photos! Oh its with Blue back ground! YAAR, I feel like I was dead.

It was 1.30 pm and I was in Uttara, I had to go to Gulshan before 4.00. OH, then I took photos in a studio after two years! 2.30pm, hey I got my pp size photo, with white background! But, oh look at me!

3.00pm : hey brother! Can u please tell me where is Uday tower?

3.05pm: in UDAY tower! Where is VFS? Excuse me, can u please tell me where is UK visa office? The information officer replied, oh you have to go to “** tower!”

For a while, I was thinking “really? But how!!!I called VFS, and they told me that I have to come to UDAY tower! They are working here and they are giving wrong information! how come? Is this guy telling me the right direction!? Confusion.” I just snidely go through the chart while talking with the guy! Yh he was right, there was no VFS.

3.15pm: Oh I am in front of VFS, waiting in QUEUE.

3.35pm: VFS officer was telling me that I would know about the result at 16 th MAY! Dam, year, its too late. I told him, "But my conference is on 22^nd May, My departure is 21^st MAY. isn’t it too late? ". He replied, "No, you have enough time!" DAM, dam.

May 12^th : Got a email from IAIN , asking me about the progress of my visa. He was man for whom we, all the youth delegates, could participate in such a big event.

May 15^th: At last, I got my VISA! Wow, it’s a multi transit visa, for Six months. Yahoo..

I reached at home 4.30pm. My mom was at the down stairs. MOOOOM, Look, Just showing her my VISA page!!! Hihihi. Then I emailed them my visa number…

May 17 th : My mom was the only person who knew about it. She was so tensed if my dad gave me permission to attend this or not!

10.00pm: I was at my dad’s room, discussing about my MBA program. After that, I just gave my dad to read the invitation letter of the Assembly. Hmmm.. They would take care of my delegation fees, food, accommodation! Everything there for seven days! Hmm, then My dad told me,” But you need plane fare!”

Then I opened the second page, hmm they were paying all my travel expenses!! Then he asked, ”but you need VISA”. I smiled, and said I got the VISA too. After seeing my VISA, confusedly looking at me and asking me "then what you want?! ". I said, "Dad I need you permission…"..after that, how any father can deny to give his daughter permission to go to Scotland all alone for 7 days! :D

May 18^th: 11pm : I got my ticket, confirmed my AUNT (my mom’s youngest sister) that I didn’t get the schedule according to my preferences, but I will try to change my return ticket for LONDON. Don’t worry.

May 19^th to MAY 21^st: the time flied like missile. I hardly could trace it!

May 21 st :

9.35pm: I was in business class! Thanks to my Emirate's friend! It happened for one of my unknown friend, he was working in Emirate, and saw me in university, and knew that I was in AIESEC, and he was too. He was so friendly and so sweet. His name probably ! “Maruf”. He didn’t have his name card yaar. That’s the first name I am confused about and I was kicking myself in my mind for that. He was the nice person number ONE>

Hey I could talk with my sis and my mom! from the plane! Well done GP. :D My mom was crying[ she always cried and worried, when ever I stayed outside my home!!! My sis and brother named me “RAJKUMARI”[princess] as the whole family was there while I was going for INDIA by BUS for AIESEC conference” hihihih.] But this time, mom and dad!MOM, I love you too. I understand her feelings! And I am in business class! Thanks to ALLAH for the blessing.

9.45pm: Plane was start running for take off. I got a beautiful lady with me as my mate through out the journey. I look outside and it seemed that all the blue starts were smiling on the ground. That’s the beginning of my journey!

Oh, I am tired. Have MBA classes up to 10pm. Reached home at 11pm. I hardly can woke up in the morning now a days. I used to wake up at 1 pm in bd time! Which is 8am in the morning in LONDON! ;(

BCC: Now i was checking mail at my hotmail acc as its full of 442 mails! Well NOW I get a email from my chines friend JOYCE, AND I feel so happy...we had a great time in Scotland and also in LONDON. She was in my aunt house for one night there and we had lots of fun.. and we all(my aunt, uncle, my cousin and me) watch GURU...I at last managed original DVD of GURU..hehehe..Ameena's DAD bought that for me from INDIA!

And I also get a message from an old friend..who was apologising for the blander he did...its really apritiating that someone realize their misdead. But.... I don't know why I am feeling so sad, and having unbearable pain inside my heart...why I am crying..I don't know.. I don't understand...I should forgive..But I don't know when I can! I wish I will forgive that person soon. :) That much I can pray for u and for myself.

Talking with Starts!

I got an assignment from a software farm; and beside my preparation for exam, I am trying to complete it. This is my first professional assignment as a computer engineer. So, Etha! Good luck! When I started it, for first 35 modules, so much time was required that I was near to loose my patience. But now, my quality and quantity of work are increasing and yes, I am happy. ;D

Instead of writing for my blog [I am writing on a diary; as here is no electricity and I can’t run my pc through IPS ;( ] I should work on ABBYY now. Oh! In my room, from my bed, you can see the whole sky, through the window! And I can see the sun rise and moon set (!) too. Though I hardly wake up before 8am! So, lying on bed and talking with the starts in the dark, at this late night (12.09 am) is really heavenly.

And I am talking about my college days with them! When I was in Holy Cross, Me and Eva used to go to college at 6.30 am, as my dad was posted in Sunamgang and my “Boro chacha”(my dad’s elder brother) used to drop us college while he was going for his office( he is a an exceptional renowned boss of his bank who used to come so early; like 5.30am or 6.00; office remains open at that time for him; so no wonder we went that early!) So, instead of taking Tiffin for the afternoon, we took breakfast with us! Hahahaha.

We were the rising bird of the morning; trees and real birds were the only company we had! But sometimes, Shilla Ahmed( Yh ! yh ! yh! The famous actress and daughter of Humayun Ahmed ;)] came at 7.05am. And then we had some “ jompesh adda”(gossiping) . She was really a very nice person to being with and so down to earth. I feel those who are really better nature human being; they hardly show you or remind you there position.

Sister Sikha, Sister Pollen, my games Miss, Mrs. Kabir( she was the final decision maker of our drama team; who would do what roll,bla bla bla), our Vice Principal Rina das( she used to call everyone “DEAR”; even when she was annoyed or forbidding someone!! One of the DAM smart persons I have seen:D), famous Sarker sir…wow what teachers I had!

Sister Sikha was not only my favorite, she was the queen of the hearts of our entire batch( because of her nature);That’s we all realized asking each other about which essay they wrote in the Board exam; everyone wrote about her as “My favourite teacher!”. I wanted to admit in Holy Cross cause when I first time entered in the college, I saw lots of girls are playing lots of games(You will be amazed if I take you to our games room!) : basket balls, cricket, handballs and so on. go No, I am not very good at those; I will prefer badminton or baseball. Yes, we often played baseball (I learn that there) in my college.

When I am writing this blog, all my those sweet memories are rush into my heart and …If my Allah (god) comes to me and ask me, “if I permit you to go back in any time of your life; then where do u want to go?”

I will reply,“I want to go back to my college life, as I was!”

Thumbs is Here!

Today is the historic MAY DAY. Today is public holiday here. I thought it is same for every country. But yesterday I got an exception. One of my friends in Ireland told me that, 7th May is tribute as May Day there

At night, I was watching news on Channel I; one news strikes in my mind based on farmers’ rights, made by Shykh Siraj, one of the most renowned Bangladeshi, who always highlighted our farmers’ issues. “Hridoye Mati O Manush” [translate: my soil and people!! I hope it’s not that bad!] is one of his famous documentary programmed on the contemporary agro-economics and development.

Our country’s consistence GPD growth exits because of our workers. May Day is actually celebrated for them. But after watching today’s news on channel-I , I find out that 40% of our population is worker, 3 core, majority of which are farmers, garments’ workers, or the people who are doing different kind of jobs abroad and pulling our country to move forwards. And most of them didn’t know anything about this day; and they don’t even have any registered organization through which they can at least bargain for their rights. I really feel bad for this. They are the real hero behind our country’s progress. And they even don’t want much from life, but hardly have they got that.

3 days back, I was talking with a junior student of BBA in my university. She was upset cause, here hardly people trust each other[that was the first time I meet with her and we talked], for a while I was shocked. Most of the people, now a days, are very self centered.

Most of the people take any initiative only if they are benefited. We are only thinking for the short time, that we may pass through to live in our life. If, we just stop thinking for only ourselves, and take some initiatives for others, then only we can change us, can change our surroundings. If we start doing that then only we may get our dream land for which we always grudge! So, Thumbs is Here!