Be the ONE

SEEKER of KNOWLEDGE & WISDOM

2011-09-05T23:13:00.000+06:00

I was always searching the purpose of my life. Sometimes I felt like its contribution towards development and sometimes i felt its the responsibility of prosperity.But gradually as time passes, i felt like I am nearer to explore it. And thanks to my reading habit :)

I never knew my childhood habit of reading outbooks (masudrana, tin gorenda, jafor iqba's all most all books, humayun ahmed, Sirshendu, Somoresh, Sunil, Sanjib chotto padhay etc) will be paid off so well. When I was a student of class IX, I was blessed with an awesome library in my school "udayan bidyalaya" where we had a unique librarian who made sure we had all kind of books from liberation wars to Sunils.Faluda to Kakababu. From Jafor Iqbal to Humayun Ahmed. It was a big treasure for me then compared to "Bisho Sahoti Krendo". I remember I had submitted 19 books to our librarian at the end of the year! though no student can take more then 2 books ;) privileged??o yeah :). She was so nice to me that, when ever I liked a book, she kindly allowed me to take with pleasure while keeping the track in my library card. I hardly read any English book at that time ..gradually I started to read different English books and now language is not the concern for me but the topic and writer.

Knowing an international language is bless and it opens up an entire world of knowledge in front of me. And I am the hungry fellow, who can't wait but to give a drive into this sea of knowledge and wisdom.

My topic of learning varies from "financial IQ" to "Warren Buffet's way", from "Achievement" to "power of your mind";I wonder if I had read so many books ever in a year before like this year!!! The more I read the more I feel that, I am now the seeker of knowledge and wisdom; and if I would search enough, nothing in this world I wouldn't get. And while I read, I am being surprised that how well balanced the ways of Islam is! And I am realizing all these reading some books of people who's religion is not Islam at all!!! surprised? Yes, me too. moreover, these books are not religious books, these are books on success, wealth, mind, memory, etc!!!!!!!

The more I read, the more I feel the urge to know more about the great Muslims we heard from the time of Hazrat Mohammed Salalahi Alhesallam's. I want to seek for their wisdom, I want to learn it and I want to share it with the people of world, so that we together can achieve a happy, joyful life in this world. So, that we all can enjoy the wealth of life which are abundant. Though I didn't got any way for that yet, but I believe that way will be reviled in front of me soon. May my Allah bless me and help me to reach my destiny. Amen.:D

Frankenstein : one of the finest motivational story I have read

2010-11-22T01:12:00.005+06:00

Clarence M. Jones told how encouragement and making faults seem easy to correct completely changed the life of his son.

“In 1970 my son David, who was then fifteen years old, came to live with me in Cincinnati. He had led a rough life. In 1958 his head was cut open in a car accident, leaving a very bad scar on his forehead.

In 1960 his mother and I were divorced and he moved to Dallas, Texas, with his mother. Until he was fifteen he had spent most of his school years in special classes for slow learners in the Dallas school system. Possibly because of the scar, school administrators had decided he was brain-injured and could not function at a normal level. He was two years behind his age group, so he was only in the seventh grade. Yet he did not know his multiplication tables, added on his fingers and could barely read.

“There was one positive point. He loved to work on radio and TV sets. He wanted to become a TV technician. I encouraged this and pointed out that he needed maths to qualify for the training. I decided to help him become proficient in this subject. We obtained four sets

of flash cards: multiplication, division, addition and subtraction.

As we went through the cards, we put the correct answers in a discard stack. When David missed one, I gave him the correct answer and then put the card in the repeat stack until there were no cards left. I made a big deal out of each card he got right, particularly if he had missed it previously. Each night we would go through the repeat stack until there were no cards left.

Each night we timed the exercise with a stop watch. I promised him that when he could get all the cards correct in eight minutes with no incorrect answers, we would quit doing it every night. This seemed an impossible goal to David. The first night it took 52 minutes, the second night, 48, then 45, 44, 41 then under 40 minutes.

We celebrated each reduction. I’d call in my wife, and we would both hug him and we’d all dance a jig. At the end of the month he was doing all the cards perfectly in less than eight minutes. When he made a small improvement he would ask to do it again. He had made the fantastic discovery that learning was easy and fun.

“Naturally his grades in algebra took a jump. It is amazing how much easier algebra is when you can multiply. He astonished himself by bringing home a B in math. That had never happened before. Other changes came with almost unbelievable rapidity. His reading improved rapidly, and he began to use his natural talents in drawing.

Later in the school year his science teacher assigned him to develop an exhibit. He chose to develop a highly complex series of models to demonstrate the effect of levers. It required skill not only in drawing and model making but in applied mathematics. The exhibit took first prize in his school’s science fair and was entered in the city competition and won third prize for the

entire city of Cincinnati.

“That did it. Here was a kid who had flunked two grades, who had been told he was ‘brain-damaged,’ who had been called ‘Frankenstein’ by his classmates and told his brains must have leaked out of the cut on his head. Suddenly he discovered he could really learn and accomplish things. The result? From the last quarter of the eighth grade all the way through high school, he

never failed to make the honor roll; in high school he was elected to the national honor society.

Once he found learning was easy, his whole life changed.” If you want to help others to improve, remember . . .

Use encouragement. Make the fault seem easy to correct.

Changing people or transforming them

2010-11-21T23:23:00.003+06:00

Some of my recent learning and believe:

Talk about changing people. If you and I will inspire the people with whom we come in contact to a realization of the hidden treasures they possess, we can do far more than change people. We can literally transform them.

Exaggeration? Then listen to these sage words from William James, one of the most distinguished psychologists and philosophers America has ever produced:

Compared with what we ought to be, we are only half awake. We are making use of only a small part of our physical and mental resources. Stating the thing broadly, the human individual thus lives far within his limits. He possesses powers of various sorts which he habitually fails to use.

Yes, you who are reading these lines possess powers of various sorts which you habitually fail to use; and one of these powers you are probably not using to the fullest extent is your magic ability to praise people and inspire them with a realization of their latent possibilities.

Abilities wither under criticism; they blossom under encouragement. To become a more effective leader of people, apply . .

"Praise the slightest improvement and praise every improvement.

Be “hearty in your approbation and lavish in your praise.”

LET THE OTHER PERSON SAVE FACE

2010-11-21T22:07:00.001+06:00

Anna Mazzone

Ms. Mazzone, a marketing specialist for a food packer, was given her first major assignment - the test-marketing of a new product.

She told the class:

“When the results of the test came in, I was devastated. I had made a serious error in my planning, and the entire test had to be done all over again.

To make this worse, I had no time to discuss it with my boss before the meeting in which I was to make my report on the project. When I was called on to give the report, I was shaking with fright. I had all I could do to keep from breaking down, but I resolved I would not cry and have all those men make remarks about women not being able to handle a management job because they are too emotional.

I made my report briefly and stated that due to an error I would repeat the study before the next meeting. I sat down, expecting my boss to blow up.

“Instead, he thanked me for my work and remarked that it was not unusual for a person to make an error on a new project and that he had confidence that the repeat survey would be accurate and meaningful to the company.

He Assured me, in front of all my colleagues, that he had faith in me and I knew I had done my best, and that my lack of experience, not my lack of ability, was the reason for the failure.

I left that meeting with my head in the air and with the determination that I would never let that boss of mine down again.”

The Letter I love

2010-11-21T19:02:00.004+06:00

I am printing the letter here because it shows how Lincoln tried to change an obstreperous general when the very fate of the nation could have depended upon the general’s action.You will know why I would love it, while you would finish reading.

This is perhaps the sharpest letter Abe Lincoln wrote after he became President; yet you will note that he

praised General Hooker before he spoke of his grave faults.

Yes, they were grave faults, but Lincoln didn’t call them that. Lincoln was more conservative, more diplomatic.Lincoln wrote: “There are some things in regard to which I am not quite satisfied with you.” Talk about tact! And diplomacy!

Here is the letter addressed to General Hooker:

I have placed you at the head of the Army of the Potomac. Of course, I have done this upon what appears to me to be sufficient reasons, and yet I think it best for you to know that there are some things in regard to which I am not quite satisfied with you.

I believe you to be a brave and skillful soldier, which, of course, I like. I also believe you do not mix politics with your profession, in which you are right. You have confidence in yourself, which is a valuable if not an indispensable quality.

You are ambitious, which, within reasonable bounds, does good rather than harm, But I think that during General Burnside’s command of the army you have taken counsel of your ambition and thwarted him as much as you could, in which you did a great wrong to the country and to a most meritorious and honourable brother officer.

I have heard, in such a way as to believe it, of your recently saying that both the army and the Government needed a dictator. Of course, it was not for this, but in spite of it, that I have given you command.Only those generals who gain successes can set up as dictators. What I now ask of you is military success and I will risk the dictatorship.

The Government will support you to the utmost of its ability, which is neither more nor less than it has done and will do for all commanders. I much fear that the spirit which you have aided to infuse into the army, of criticizing their commander and withholding confidence from him, will now turn upon you. I shall assist you, as far as I can, to put it down.

Neither you nor Napoleon, if he were alive again, could get any good out of an army while such spirit prevails in it, and now beware of rashness. Beware of rashness, but with energy and sleepless vigilance go forward and give us victories.

THE VALUE OF A SMILE AT CHRISTMAS

2010-11-20T01:21:00.003+06:00

It costs nothing, but creates much.

It enriches those who receive, without impoverishing those who give.

It happens in a flash and the memory of it sometimes lasts forever,

None are so rich they can get along without it, and

none so poor but are richer for its benefits.

It creates happiness in the home,

fosters good will in a business,

and is the countersign of friends.

It is rest to the weary, daylight to the discouraged,

sunshine to the sad, and Nature’s best antidote fee trouble.

Yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen,

for it is something that is no earthly good to anybody till it is given away.

And if in the last-minute rush of Christmas buying some of

our salespeople should be too tired to give you a smile,

may we ask you to leave one of yours?

For nobody needs a smile so much as those who have none

left to give!

Dad

2010-04-14T23:19:00.006+06:00

Intensive-care unit that's how I get abbreviation of ICU while I googled it. I was never admitted there & I hope I never will be. But I saw my dad there for seven days before he died. I can remember how shocked i was when I saw him first time in that hospital's bed senseless. The only word I said was "Oh My GOD!"

Life in ICU was really different from my known world.

At day 1: I saw a patient next to my dad's bed. She was talking and let her family know about her discomfort. I was wishing if my dad could open his eyes for once; just told us what his discomfort; just like the lady next to his bed!

At day 2: I didn't saw that lady ever. She died in the morning!

In those 7 days, I felt like everyone of my family, my mother, my brother ,my sis & me, we lost something apart from my dad. We are never the same person any more.

I never thought I will ever missed my dad that's way. I never felt like that I wanna follow some of my dad's foot steps. I never realized the worthiness of some of his deeds.

I have promised something to myself during that time. And dad, I will fulfill all of those insAllah.

I love you and I will love you always.

**This year I again started writing & today is Bangla Noborsho!!! sob bangalike !! 1417 er onek onek suvecha.

"If It's Going to Be Its Up to Me"

2009-07-04T23:44:00.003+07:00

I am Somebody. I can do Something. I will make it Happen,. I believe I will succeed. I will do what only I can and must do. I will take charge and I will take control. I will assume leadership of self. "The Force of faith in God and the belief in me"

To look at my dreams - set my goals keep my mission on course, because I belief inside me is that Force. I will not be intimidated into silence and retreat. I will not be manipulated by prejudice of any kind. I will challenge the boundaries that would limit my goals and my dreams which I have pathetically and pitifully believed for so long. Example: I'm too old, I'm too poor, I' not educated, I'm too shy'.

I will not be fenced in by these negative assumptions. I will not allow frustration to make me cash in and give up and quit. I'm under New Orders from my Higher Power Who tells me "If its going to come true - its up to you" To whom I respond, "I am, I can, I will".

I will not indulge in negative fantasies that distract, depress, defuse or de-focus my attention, thereby taking me off course. I will face my fears of failure and accomplish something wonderful anyway. I will not allow problems, pressure, pain, negative forecasts, facts and figures to discourage me, or become my excuse for quitting and distract me from my dreams.

I will let my faith in God and myself be in control of every decision I make and every action I take. I will let My Hopes lead me, I will not surrender leadership to my hurts, or lack of resources. God is in control of the present and the future. God is at work in me giving me the will and the power to achieve my purpose.

I believe that I have received much from God so I must give something back by accomplishing something worthwhile before I die. I owe this to my Lord and Saviour, parents, family and friends. I believe that with divine inspiration and courage, I can manipulate and turn:

Obstacles into Opportunities

Stumbling blocks into Stepping stones

Problems into Creative Possibilities

Mistakes can become my most Trusted Teachers

Failure become the Key to Unlock New doors

I believe in Hope, I am addicted to Hope. Hope is an emotional reaction that promises life but can't guarantee that all of its promises will be fulfilled. Hope is my decision. It may not be completed fulfilled but at least they are keeping me alive and alert. I believe God is and will always be Alive. He is way ahead of me maneuvering in the silence and the shadows. I know he really cares for and I will trust Him. Today, or maybe next week, I will encounter new forces that will become Sources to lead my adventure to the break-through it needs.

"If It's to Be Its Up To Me"

Right that's what called positive frame of mind and that's what it should be. Every things depend on ME. I want to have a life that when I write about tit I dazzle.. and u know its not easy to dazzle me!

"PLAY 'EM STRAIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU"

2009-06-18T23:01:00.008+06:00

What a way I started today: woke up before my alarm rang!!! Seems like miracle till now. I was very happy.. Wasn’t tired, not feeling drowsy; and then everything seemed turn into opposite direction. One of the worse days in my life; I was about to have my breakfast. It was about 7:30 am. Just about to have a bite; lol..then I had my brunch at 11 am.

I wanted to write this post with this name, “PLAY 'EM STRAIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU"...but now I am really happy that I am writing my blog and with the name.

I have finished a book, last week, by Frank Bettger, named: “How I multiplied My Income and Happiness in Selling” one of the best book from my collection. An idea, he learned in baseball that he had used every day in selling; That came from the greatest brain that ever played baseball: John McGraw!

I was applying that for last couple of days. And it worked;

I was late by two hours to pick my dad from office;

What I did?

I just received his calls every time within one ring;

Informed my location;

Gave an estimate time to reach which I couldn't make;

Let him understand that I was really trying to make it;

What was the outcome?

He only called twice / thrice during the time.

Understood my sincerity and wasn't upset: and that the best part for me.

Now days, I start praying 5 times in a day at accurate time. I read that "you will be changed, inside and out. That is the work of Allah in our lives." SubhanAllah. I feel more disciplined in my day to day activities after that.

Another beautiful concepts of this book are as follows:

"Frank Bettger's 13 WEEK Self Organizer"

"Why should do something for nothing"

"The Dollars and cents value of a call"

and so more..reading this book is like talking with Bettger himself; It's like listening lots of stories (I love stories") and which I will never forget. It's the development, that begins and more importantly I want it and I am learning through it. So, I am starting playing straight and in front of Me.

Random Thoughts...part I

2009-06-07T05:47:00.006+06:00

For the first time, today, I felt like: life might be not that difficult, that I always thought of it.

I start implementing a new routine for my life. I woke up at 3:40 am today : D. Well, well, but didn't read the texts that I thought I would read! lol

Umm, not bad; as it's just a beginning. I will start reading from 6:30 am. Tried to read a self development book that I recently got from a new friend: but, hmmm, seems like, it's not yet my cup of tea. I heard a bird is singing near my window; man! and it's not the regular crow! lol

That's the advantage of waking up early. Again, I heard it's singing. :-D cool. Now, feeling a bit drowsy...lol

Some habits that I am going to implement:

Scheduling,
Drinking 2 Liters of water everyday,
Bringing back the workout habit again,
Eating fruits and lots of vegetable,
Trying to get rid of laziness that I have lol,
Evaluating my activities and myself!
Listening News all types,
Reading newspaper (i always do lol),
Writing regularly into my blog and make it a habit
Taking care of myself :P according to my brother, that should be my 1st priority! he he he

Oh...I want my breakfast & news paper yaar...:D

The Cow and the Pig!

2009-06-06T00:45:00.000+06:00

There was once a man who was very rich and very miserly at the same time. The villagers disliked him intensely. One day he said to them, "Either you're jealous of me or you don't understand my love of money-God alone knows. But you dislike me; that much I know. When I die, I won't take anything with me. I will leave it all for others. I will make a will, and I will give everything to charity. Then everyone will be happy."

Even then people mocked and laughed at him. The rich man said to them, "What is the matter with you? Can't you wait a few years to see my money go to charity?"

The villagers didn't believe him. He said, "Do you think I'm immortal? I'll die like everyone else, and then my money will go to charities." He couldn't understand why they didn't believe him.

One day he went for a walk. All of a sudden it started raining heavily, so he took shelter under a tree. Under this tree he saw a pig and a cow. The pig and the cow entered into conversation, and the man overheard what they were saying.

The pig said to the cow, "How is it that everybody appreciates you and nobody appreciates me? When I die, I provide people with bacon, ham and sausage. People can also use my bristles. I give three or four things, whereas you give only one thing: milk. Why do people appreciate you all the time and not me?"

The cow said to the pig, "Look, I give them milk while I'm alive. They see that I am generous with what I have. But you don't give them anything while you're alive. Only after you're dead do you give ham, bacon and so forth. People don't believe in the future; they believe in the present. If you give while you are alive, people will appreciate you. It is quite simple."

From that moment on, the rich man gave all he had to the poor.

Whispers of the night

2009-06-06T00:40:00.000+06:00

walking down the street
with an empty feeling
thoughts of you flood my mind
just as the heavens above opened up;

lost and looking for answers
dreams and hopes that was once
within reach, now seems
a million miles away;

sitting next to the rain splattered window,
watching the shadow of darkness slowly fade away,
the words to express my pain linger in the back of my mind
kept locked up within me, unable to escape the imaginary fence that i built around;

i cornered the fears that restrained my emotions,
bridging the distance between you and me,
i took a giant leap into the dream
that i wanted to become a reality;

gathering strength, i said the three words,
that had been waiting to explode from within me,
everything that i tried to hide from you for so long
finally tumbled out of the closet and into the open;

as the distant roar of the thunder
wakes me up from the passionate slumber,
i crawl closer trying to be next to you,
to hold you close,
and to hold you tight;

as the lovely night slowly
gives way to a beautiful morning,
still entwined in each other’s arms,
softly whispering to the special one,
who made a dream into a reality
i just realize that...

If You Forget Me

2009-02-16T19:26:00.000+06:00

If You Forget Me

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

--------Pablo Neruda
---------:D ah it should be F. A . Khan lol

OLD POEMS

2009-02-14T17:52:00.004+06:00

The original bangla version of these poems were published in 1999 and 2000. Thanks to Meher Nigar MIM and Reema Akhter for their special contribution ......

" YOU"

In the dim moonlight, at midnight,

When suddenly the freezing dawn wind blows,

Or,

The transparent daylight of autumn,

When it touches you,

As if I wake up.

At that moment.

At the midst of this tiring life,

Something rose from the past, some lost memories,

Which makes some fleeting loneliness,

Which reminds me of You.

Then,

Opening the access of the desire heaven,

Then I come close to you, very close to you!

In your untamed hair,

In the blowing light wind,

In the sunshine,

While I surprise you,

Do you feel me, only me?

If you don't find me in your thoughts,

If you are missing me,

Then

Walk along the dew drenched field.

You will find me in each dew drop,

And I will find you too.

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“EKUSHE”,

--in memories of 21 February, 1952

When,
Dawn breaks over the world,
that’s the time everyone knows
Ekushe has come.
Shaheed Minars are covered with flower petals,
To remember the occasion.
On this dusty path gathers
Hundreds of the young and old.

Again the shadow of sorrow instigates,
As the deep secret in one's heart is woken up again.
The silence awakens suddenly around.
And the scent of the blood of those Martyrs lingers in the air.
All life suddenly seems to stop,
In front of this monument.

In a short time everything around, loses its liveliness.
It becomes lonely, silent.

With a sad and broken heart, people standing …
Suddenly abandon their mundane lives
only for a single hour, on the specific day, for this gathering.
For an instant, this emotion is felt by the hearts of young people.

They urge to all the Martyrs,
To Wake up again,
To Wake up in their hearts.
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The Final Annalysis

2008-12-14T01:13:00.000+06:00

this is one of ma recent reading.....I am now becoming a fan of Her

People are often unreasonable,illogical and
self centered...forgive them anyway!

If you are kind, people may accrue you of selfish,
ulterior motives.....be kind anyway!

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and
make some true enemies..succeed anyway!

If you are honest and frank, people may
cheat you...be honest and frank anyway!

What you spend years building, someone may
destroy overnight....go ahead and build it anyway!

If you find serenity and happiness, people may
be jealous....be happy anyway!

The good you do today, people will often
forget tomorrow..do good anyway!

Give the world the best you have, and even that may
never be enough......give it anyway!

You see in the final analysis, its all between you and God,
It was never between you and them anyway!!

Authenticity

2008-06-28T18:11:00.002+06:00

I was reading the book "Daily Inspiration" by Robin Sharma...and lets share so far some of the best part of it...

" Your wounds can be turned into your wisdom. Your stumbling blocks can become your stepping stones if you choose. Do not miss the remarkable opportunity that adversity and even tragedy presents. Your life can be made even better by the things that break your heart."

" Growth sometimes comes in difficult ways. But growth is always good. If you could look down at your life from a 50,000- foot perspective, you would see that everything that's happening is very beautiful. Priceless, actually."

" Immediately before a great victory, one will often experience a stunning defeat. The key is to maintain your focus and keep on believing. Don't give up."

" There are no mistakes in life, only lessons. There is no such thing as a negative experience, only opportunities to grow, learn and advance along the road of self-mastery. From struggle comes strength. Even pain can be wonderful teacher."

Enjoy the life!

On going life.....!

2008-05-24T21:12:00.006+06:00

I am really happy that after a long days I again started reading this book: "Goals - How to Get Everything You Want-Faster Than You Ever Thought Possible"; I downloaded this at the beginning of this month but couldn't manage to finish it. This month is about to end and when I look back, it seems like a month full of dissatisfaction and discomfort. Actually today I learn if there is no one or nothing to motivate myself, only I, myself can motivate me. I have to be come and cool. I have to get back myself. It wasn't me whom i was talking with, watching everyday in my room's mirror. Thanks to Allah, at least I realize the things.

This book reminds me to forbid three things which are :

1. Not to blame others.
2.Always admit own responsibility.
3.No more excuses.

I have to take charges in my life.

Setting my goals..................

It is very important to set goals in life. I have only 2 goals right now to achieve in this upcoming 15 days. Some books can really change a person's life. I recently talk with one of my dear one, who was really frustrated about the life; Only spending 2 hours and motivating for setting goals, can help some one to being charged and positive about life! Wow.. amazing....I really enjoyed that transformation. Today, I am really missing my friends and some of my colleagues

kono kicchu

2007-08-17T13:06:00.001+06:00

I am writing it only for myself, so its Bangla and written using English alphabets...

Amer mon ektu o valo nai :(. Mazhe mazhe mone hoy aro onek dhorjo thakto amar; Allah amer sohay hon er amake sahajjo korun;

Baire onek bristi hocche, jhor jhor kore bristi....Er amar vetore onek kosto hocche onek onek kosto...

"ubantu";)

2007-07-06T19:51:00.001+06:00

Yesterday, my midterm exams were over. Last exam was too good. I just finished it in 1hr and 15 min! and then revised and got a mistake in my paper! And it made me real happy cause I was always very lazy to revise my exam papers and hardly want to do that. Lots of things are happening in my life and in my country. So, though I thought that I would write about my conference in this post, but now I am not in mood of thinking of past. I am planing of printing of all the photos that I took there. Everyone wants to see those. Then I may want to write!

Anyways, I was talking with one of my chat friend and he is in army. He was talking about a upcoming project that they are going to launch in this October. Its based on making new markets of groceries and selling them a very low price then the current price rate in the markets. Through that, they can control the price of vegetables and other crops. Most liking part of this project for me is that, they are trying to give a good amount of money to the farmers for their crops. I think, the idea is fine and as the govt. already give them the permission, according to him, so it may start showing its effect from October. But what makes me irritate is that, I was asking him about some barriers that they may face while they will run the project; and he hardly can answer me the solutions. To me, it's sounds like he didn't do his homework! Then I started making lots of queries and made his life hell! ;)

When I was watching today's evening news in NTV, I found that they are focusing on this same issue;a Hillisha fish is selling at a price of 800/- TK which is more then $10 USD! And the current government recently band exporting Hilisha fish in India, cause fish traders are exporting it for $2usd! According to today's news, they still exporting it. I really can't understand why this things are happening in our country.

Apart from that, now I am learning using "ubantu", a Linux based operating system. "ubantu" means "humanity toward others"...is sponsored by Canonical Ltd, owned by South African Mark Shuttle worth; the name of the distribution comes from the African concept of ubuntu! That's sounds interesting.:) this operating system made for average users. hmmm. For this reason I find it user friendly and start liking it more then Windows!

In my office, all the computers have this operating system, and all are connected through Intranet. An intranet is a private computer network that uses Internet protocols, network connectivity to securely share part of an organization's information or operations with its employees!hmmmm;) Moreover, we are using some software, which are so advanced and user friendly that, what else my kind of tech lover may want. Our head office is in Malaysia, and they are monitoring all our activities from there! I think it's good that I start from a small multinational organization and I think it will help me to develop my professionalism.

Instead of this job and MBA, I am planing of doing a job of my own. I am start making a list of what I want to learn and which skills I want to develop to be what I want to be! lets see, how close I can be!

Today I want to watch Indian Idol III, and my favorite is Anteeka! She is a genuine performer and all other contestants have a fear of her performance cause she is so unpredictable! She got the chance in gala through wild card! I think, Allah makes those life real hell, who may be a real star in future. And I think that's fare enough;) only 15 min to go!1,2,3......;)

Inspiration

2007-06-27T12:00:00.001+06:00

Today is a day full of good newses. :D I hope it will continue through out the year.(insallah and massallah). In the newspaper, I read that our current caretaker government is finalizing a deal with Indian govt. about export our goods in India with out tax. :D That's really a inspiring news for us. Cause, when I was visiting India, we had some biscuits, dal vaja and other Bangladeshi foods and when we shared that with Mr. Banerji[he was become our uncle! lots of discussion we did with him and we really missed him when we were going back.:D the topic started about godfather and ends in politics:)] he said that he never had this kind of taste biscuits ;).

Cheers to Bangladeshi govt and Indian govt. Moreover, now Bangladesh railway is started to rebuild some rail lines as broad gage. yahoooooo. that means we may have that kind of train like we traveled in India. OH, I love this care taker govt. May Allah bless them and long live care taker govt. Moreover, Bangladesh has signed in ASIAN railway agreement, so with in 2008-09, we, Asian can visit any country! I really like traveling:). If Asia also comes out with a same currency like the Euro and didn't required any visa or work permit to work in ASIA, that will open a door to lots of talented people to utilize their potential. And I always prefer a working environment where different people with different cultures are working together. I think thats creates a healthy environment to work. I wish that will happened very soon insallah.

While I was modifying my IGoogle site, I got a cool site with poems and presentations. The style of the presentation is same as I made in my LCP election :)
So, here is the poem of that site, author is unknown:(
BCC: I will describe about the rest of my journey of previous post ;0 very soon insallah.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the straggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

I really like it.

BCC: Bangladesh is now playing steady today.:)

I am Back!

2007-06-15T02:30:00.001+06:00

Wow…After a long time, I am back. Again start writing my blog! My dear blog, trust me, though there wasn’t enough time to miss you, ;) but I missed you a lot. Hehehe.

Right this moment, while listening “ JHUM BARA BAR JHUM”, I am really confuse about from where should I start! From where should I start writing about my UK trip….hmmmm…Lets start from beginning.

12 th April:

After being waiting a lot for the final confirmation, UK Government at last confirm me that Yh I was also selected as the delegate.!!!! WOW..WOW..Is it a dream? I was asking myself! Well, Etha, well done! But now you need the travel bruiser!

20^th April:

They confirmed that, Yes, my application was strong enough to get the travel bruiser!!! Yes, Yes, Yes… now they are advising me to apply for VISA.

For UK Visa, I needed 9000 taka(63 pound) Cash, And I had only 3500 taka. It took another 17 days to save that money. I only told my mom and one of my friends about it.

(bcc: that’s the month I departed from AIESEC, a month full of surprisesL)

7^th May: The day I applied for VISA. Ameena (One of my AIESEC friends, now she resigned) told me that, I had to take photos with white back ground. To me it’s already late. Cause those who were sponsoring my travel and other expenses, they wrote me to inform them as soon as I could, and the travel booking would be cancel after 28 th April! Now, Look at my photos! Oh its with Blue back ground! YAAR, I feel like I was dead.

It was 1.30 pm and I was in Uttara, I had to go to Gulshan before 4.00. OH, then I took photos in a studio after two years! 2.30pm, hey I got my pp size photo, with white background! But, oh look at me!

3.00pm : hey brother! Can u please tell me where is Uday tower?

3.05pm: in UDAY tower! Where is VFS? Excuse me, can u please tell me where is UK visa office? The information officer replied, oh you have to go to “** tower!”

For a while, I was thinking “really? But how!!!I called VFS, and they told me that I have to come to UDAY tower! They are working here and they are giving wrong information! how come? Is this guy telling me the right direction!? Confusion.” I just snidely go through the chart while talking with the guy! Yh he was right, there was no VFS.

3.15pm: Oh I am in front of VFS, waiting in QUEUE.

3.35pm: VFS officer was telling me that I would know about the result at 16 th MAY! Dam, year, its too late. I told him, "But my conference is on 22^nd May, My departure is 21^st MAY. isn’t it too late? ". He replied, "No, you have enough time!" DAM, dam.

May 12^th : Got a email from IAIN , asking me about the progress of my visa. He was man for whom we, all the youth delegates, could participate in such a big event.

May 15^th: At last, I got my VISA! Wow, it’s a multi transit visa, for Six months. Yahoo..

I reached at home 4.30pm. My mom was at the down stairs. MOOOOM, Look, Just showing her my VISA page!!! Hihihi. Then I emailed them my visa number…

May 17 th : My mom was the only person who knew about it. She was so tensed if my dad gave me permission to attend this or not!

10.00pm: I was at my dad’s room, discussing about my MBA program. After that, I just gave my dad to read the invitation letter of the Assembly. Hmmm.. They would take care of my delegation fees, food, accommodation! Everything there for seven days! Hmm, then My dad told me,” But you need plane fare!”

Then I opened the second page, hmm they were paying all my travel expenses!! Then he asked, ”but you need VISA”. I smiled, and said I got the VISA too. After seeing my VISA, confusedly looking at me and asking me "then what you want?! ". I said, "Dad I need you permission…"..after that, how any father can deny to give his daughter permission to go to Scotland all alone for 7 days! :D

May 18^th: 11pm : I got my ticket, confirmed my AUNT (my mom’s youngest sister) that I didn’t get the schedule according to my preferences, but I will try to change my return ticket for LONDON. Don’t worry.

May 19^th to MAY 21^st: the time flied like missile. I hardly could trace it!

May 21 st :

9.35pm: I was in business class! Thanks to my Emirate's friend! It happened for one of my unknown friend, he was working in Emirate, and saw me in university, and knew that I was in AIESEC, and he was too. He was so friendly and so sweet. His name probably ! “Maruf”. He didn’t have his name card yaar. That’s the first name I am confused about and I was kicking myself in my mind for that. He was the nice person number ONE>

Hey I could talk with my sis and my mom! from the plane! Well done GP. :D My mom was crying[ she always cried and worried, when ever I stayed outside my home!!! My sis and brother named me “RAJKUMARI”[princess] as the whole family was there while I was going for INDIA by BUS for AIESEC conference” hihihih.] But this time, mom and dad!MOM, I love you too. I understand her feelings! And I am in business class! Thanks to ALLAH for the blessing.

9.45pm: Plane was start running for take off. I got a beautiful lady with me as my mate through out the journey. I look outside and it seemed that all the blue starts were smiling on the ground. That’s the beginning of my journey!

Oh, I am tired. Have MBA classes up to 10pm. Reached home at 11pm. I hardly can woke up in the morning now a days. I used to wake up at 1 pm in bd time! Which is 8am in the morning in LONDON! ;(

BCC: Now i was checking mail at my hotmail acc as its full of 442 mails! Well NOW I get a email from my chines friend JOYCE, AND I feel so happy...we had a great time in Scotland and also in LONDON. She was in my aunt house for one night there and we had lots of fun.. and we all(my aunt, uncle, my cousin and me) watch GURU...I at last managed original DVD of GURU..hehehe..Ameena's DAD bought that for me from INDIA!

And I also get a message from an old friend..who was apologising for the blander he did...its really apritiating that someone realize their misdead. But.... I don't know why I am feeling so sad, and having unbearable pain inside my heart...why I am crying..I don't know.. I don't understand...I should forgive..But I don't know when I can! I wish I will forgive that person soon. :) That much I can pray for u and for myself.

Talking with Starts!

2007-05-08T01:40:00.001+06:00

I got an assignment from a software farm; and beside my preparation for exam, I am trying to complete it. This is my first professional assignment as a computer engineer. So, Etha! Good luck! When I started it, for first 35 modules, so much time was required that I was near to loose my patience. But now, my quality and quantity of work are increasing and yes, I am happy. ;D

Instead of writing for my blog [I am writing on a diary; as here is no electricity and I can’t run my pc through IPS ;( ] I should work on ABBYY now. Oh! In my room, from my bed, you can see the whole sky, through the window! And I can see the sun rise and moon set (!) too. Though I hardly wake up before 8am! So, lying on bed and talking with the starts in the dark, at this late night (12.09 am) is really heavenly.

And I am talking about my college days with them! When I was in Holy Cross, Me and Eva used to go to college at 6.30 am, as my dad was posted in Sunamgang and my “Boro chacha”(my dad’s elder brother) used to drop us college while he was going for his office( he is a an exceptional renowned boss of his bank who used to come so early; like 5.30am or 6.00; office remains open at that time for him; so no wonder we went that early!) So, instead of taking Tiffin for the afternoon, we took breakfast with us! Hahahaha.

We were the rising bird of the morning; trees and real birds were the only company we had! But sometimes, Shilla Ahmed( Yh ! yh ! yh! The famous actress and daughter of Humayun Ahmed ;)] came at 7.05am. And then we had some “ jompesh adda”(gossiping) . She was really a very nice person to being with and so down to earth. I feel those who are really better nature human being; they hardly show you or remind you there position.

Sister Sikha, Sister Pollen, my games Miss, Mrs. Kabir( she was the final decision maker of our drama team; who would do what roll,bla bla bla), our Vice Principal Rina das( she used to call everyone “DEAR”; even when she was annoyed or forbidding someone!! One of the DAM smart persons I have seen:D), famous Sarker sir…wow what teachers I had!

Sister Sikha was not only my favorite, she was the queen of the hearts of our entire batch( because of her nature);That’s we all realized asking each other about which essay they wrote in the Board exam; everyone wrote about her as “My favourite teacher!”. I wanted to admit in Holy Cross cause when I first time entered in the college, I saw lots of girls are playing lots of games(You will be amazed if I take you to our games room!) : basket balls, cricket, handballs and so on. go No, I am not very good at those; I will prefer badminton or baseball. Yes, we often played baseball (I learn that there) in my college.

When I am writing this blog, all my those sweet memories are rush into my heart and …If my Allah (god) comes to me and ask me, “if I permit you to go back in any time of your life; then where do u want to go?”

I will reply,“I want to go back to my college life, as I was!”

Thumbs is Here!

2007-05-01T23:48:00.000+06:00

Today is the historic MAY DAY. Today is public holiday here. I thought it is same for every country. But yesterday I got an exception. One of my friends in Ireland told me that, 7th May is tribute as May Day there

At night, I was watching news on Channel I; one news strikes in my mind based on farmers’ rights, made by Shykh Siraj, one of the most renowned Bangladeshi, who always highlighted our farmers’ issues. “Hridoye Mati O Manush” [translate: my soil and people!! I hope it’s not that bad!] is one of his famous documentary programmed on the contemporary agro-economics and development.

Our country’s consistence GPD growth exits because of our workers. May Day is actually celebrated for them. But after watching today’s news on channel-I , I find out that 40% of our population is worker, 3 core, majority of which are farmers, garments’ workers, or the people who are doing different kind of jobs abroad and pulling our country to move forwards. And most of them didn’t know anything about this day; and they don’t even have any registered organization through which they can at least bargain for their rights. I really feel bad for this. They are the real hero behind our country’s progress. And they even don’t want much from life, but hardly have they got that.

3 days back, I was talking with a junior student of BBA in my university. She was upset cause, here hardly people trust each other[that was the first time I meet with her and we talked], for a while I was shocked. Most of the people, now a days, are very self centered.

Most of the people take any initiative only if they are benefited. We are only thinking for the short time, that we may pass through to live in our life. If, we just stop thinking for only ourselves, and take some initiatives for others, then only we can change us, can change our surroundings. If we start doing that then only we may get our dream land for which we always grudge! So, Thumbs is Here!

Realization

2007-04-29T13:39:00.000+06:00

Small things really matter in my life. A new beginning of another part of my journey is just ahead. And when I was drawing deep inside my soul, I feel like I was waiting for this.

When u have to walk and there is no road to walk on, how do u feel? Searching for a new thing is always interesting. While I was talking today, at this night (2.15am), with my sis, she identify that, I have always interest for exceptions. And that’s the base from where all the problems start from. Most important thing is that, what ever I want to do, I need to enjoy that, or love that. Or at least I have to have some interest on that. I am good at only those activities that I find something new, interesting, where you can solve problems your ways, and create or implement your ideas. But that can’t bring the consistency.

Now, some of the renowned people are telling me that, I have to understand what others want from me or what the situation demands. Mostly, I have to learn how to hide myself in a crowd! I also realize the urgency of that. Yes, to change a system, you need to be a part of the systems. I knew that, but I can’t be that. Living in uncertainty is never being easy. But that’s also a part of life. This time I will also be the part of the system.

I have taken this quiz test 3^rd time in a raw and the result is still same!

So lets share it ..IF I were in 24 I would be..

You are part Jack Bauer. You are an aggressive and heroic figure. You think rules are only for kids, and try to break them at least once everyday (or hour). You like to get help from others especially your best friends. To complete a task, you are willing to do whatever it takes - be it the right way or the wrong one[ is it?!]. Also, you could totally kick Chuck Norris' ass.

You are part Bill Buchanan. You are a law abiding citizen and in your world, rules are the driving force behind anything and everything. Your leadership charisma is something talked about by others, and instead of doing things differently you do different things. You have an uncanny knack of staying calm in tense situations and your tone is testimony to that. Keep the cool attitude and you will surely overcome the most perilous situations.

If I were a Disney princess I would be Belle and Cinderella

2007-04-22T00:41:00.000+06:00

Its’ a tie!

You are part Belle (I forget the story..Hihihih) you are strong [I love to be], deep (like deep blue sea! Just kidding...) and you are not a slave to petty superficial things. You are independent and allow yourself to see inner beauty without sacrificing your values (it is the most difficult task now!!). You are almost too good of a person!!!(Oh!! what a pampering!)

You are part Cinderella!! You are hard working and never complain, however, your trust is sometimes misplaced (who didn’t have this experience??) and people sometimes take advantages of you[i really helpless about it..but improving hahha]. Still, you are beautiful inside and out (AHA ;)), and one day you will realize it and find true love!!(hey that’s sound real boring)

LOL..:D That’s interesting! Do you want to know Which Disney Princess you are? Check it out www.brainfall.com

Some of these words are so true that I am speech less ;) hihihih…

Old memories!!!

2007-04-16T00:47:00.000+06:00

14 th April was the NOBO BORSHO( beginning of Bengali new year).....But for the first time I didn't go out of my home in this day! I just don't want to!(mom was really sad for that)... ..

The day starts with "Pani vhat"( rice+water!) and different types of "Vartas"[ I really like to eat :) but can’t explain you what type of food this is!] and reading "Chokro" by Sirsendu. After a long long time, a day just for myself, whatever way I want to spend it,

I can!!!

I like Eva’s Shari, and the way she dressed for PAYLA Baishak (1st day of Bengali New Year!) and she was prepared for the concert at My University! L.R.B (a very famous band) came to our concert and they announced to go for hunt of talented singers(!!) as they were very much impressed of our singing! I wish I was there! I really missed that!

Though it’s not her first time at any of my university concert, and most of AIUBIANs know that I have a TWIN. But still….One girl (I couldn’t find out who is she) came to Eva and ask her, did we know each other? Eva smiled ;D(as we have to often face this situation! hihihih) and said “No”! Then the girl said, “But I knew a girl like you!” Then Eva replied,” But she has short hair!” The girl looked at her shocked! My sis smiled (with all her teeth) and said “We are twin!” And my sis’s friends (her gang) didn’t understand what’s going on! (ha-ha)

Being twin is not bad! And recently we both are missing our school & college days’ funs that we had! I was leader of Trojans’ and Eva was Spartans’ (anti party)! As it was our 1^st year of college and most of girls of Holy Cross didn’t learn yet how to recognize us (as my hair was not short that time; D) So most of the time, they told Eva about the plan that we had for the annual sports to beat Spartans (thinking that its ETHA!) and same to her group! Though after six months, if someone told us “ Oh! You are twin!”, then my friends got very angry and asked us, ” you are twin?!” as we are just opposite of each other.

I was really sad today. But if you have some true friends around you…it doesn’t take time to smile :) again!...

Ikrra Bikra Dhum!!

2007-04-12T16:25:00.000+06:00

I have tremendous pain in my gum, as my wisdom teeth (akkel dath) are start growing. I hardly can open my mouth while I want to eat!! Its seem like that when ever you have some knowledge of wisdom(!!), to express it, you have to take some pain!! (Just kidding, I need to go to the Dentist! you can check out this site http://www.doctorndtv.com [if you are a doctor then u should check it out!] hey that’s an Indian web! I didn't notice. And at last I watch "Guru" today! Some of the incidents and dialogs remind me the film "Aviator". But I like the Hindi flavor as well...)

Yesterday night, Bangladesh again lost against England :( While I was watching the match under the blanket (: D) I wonder how could I write about this match when my country is loosing! Then suddenly I realize, how Bangladeshi sports reporters may feel while they have to write about the Match!! Though our bowlers have played really well otherwise why England has to take 45 overs! I don't know if the semifinal dream is yet over or not! But fortune favors the Brave! And what ever our boys lost or won.....They are brave enough as tigers! : D

Last eight overs, England needed eight runs to win and next 3 overs were median!! Then I though, if we can't take nay more wicket lets not give them any opportunity to run! Even the last deciding run was not easy for the English to take; D

But still I am sad and now we need result!! Well not only Bangladeshi cricketers are changed! Supporters as well!
Cheers to us!!!

WIN ....WIN and ..WIN....

2007-04-09T14:09:00.000+06:00

wow wow wow.....

Everyone knows what happened at 7th APRIL.YH we won against South Africa!

I was really upset, the way our boyz were playing after entering the super eight.But I never loss my faith on them.

That day, my TV card was not working!and my twin sis was not yet come from her medical.So, i wonder..what to do..! Cricinfo was the only hope left for me!(but instead of watching u r reading ..u can understand my feeling!)
While i saw the score 32/0, i felt like ,"starting is good,they are really now playing today!can't we WIN!!!"

After Bangladesh lost her 1st wicket, me and my sis started watching the game at her room[thank god her ward was over:)]
Trust me when ever Bangladesh lost a wicket, i was just thinking of who is LEFT! I think whole nation was thinking like same....and praying for BD team!
Aftab, Ashraful and Mashrafi(pagla) ...three bating heroes of the day! At the last over Ashraful needed 13 runs...me and Eva(my sis)were thinking like 6 balls.....ASH had to play either 3fours and 1run or 1six+1four+3ones!.....
but ASH was out at the first ball of the over! I feel so sad for him..only 13 runs away from his another century....87 out of only 83 balls!!!!!!!

But apart from that i like the way he leads other to bat at the crease..that's what we desire from him all the time.......and first time i felt like now ASH is showing that he is no more immature

After we got the victory...i was jumping on Eva's BED! and she was trying to sleep..heewaa..
Well I wish i could also join the celebrating team at TSC..cell phone was the last hope to shout with friends!:(

Well,in the evening, most of the boyz had coloured hair!(as last night was holy ;)_and BD Jerseys are all over the campuses...
I felt so excited that i decided to write blog very seriously!!hahaha

Nahid was telling me.."well that's nice that u r not start playing CRICKET!!!" ;)

well through out the MATCH..one thing made me proud..and that is, the whole stadium was shouting "BANGLADESH..BANGLADESH...."and we can hear it !! so LOUD! (one can easily think that they are playing in BANGLADESH!!)

MY dear TIGERS..I am really very proud of U....:D

Todays to tomorrow

2007-03-31T00:48:00.000+06:00

HEy....

I have come back from APXLDS......

One of the most life changing experience that i have..till..now....

This is the first time i ever went outside Bangladesh.....and get the opportunity to have friends from different countries......and ......!!!

After an international conference i am now again focusing on myself!..instead of focusing on AIESEC or other matters....wow...i just feeling that i am getting myself again.

Before APXLDS it seems that i was lost and that i realised when i was in AP....

Oh ap...ap...ap...............:D

This conference makes me practical....rather then emotional...what i was actually and i learn to live today then tomorrow.......

Well about writing what i learnt from this conference would never end....

So lets share something different from learning and .bla bla bla

This is the 1st 26Th MARCH( our independence day) .......and we were not in our land....

We were in the train travelling from Hyderabad to Kolkata.......(like we were in FAR FAR land....;))

Me, Nil, Santo, Somikh...find out that "hey Bangladesh is Now in 2nd round of world cup Cricket for the 1st time ever and today is our Independent day!!!!!!!!!!"..and where we are!!!!!!

We started missing our country so much....feeling like..yaar..where we are!!......Kothay amer Sonar Bangla........Ah.......hmmmmmmm

We started singing all the Songs that we knew(definately the songs that had written for BANGLADESH....hehehehe.......)

This feeling encouraged us to sing all the songs that we knew......and After a looooon loooong time we realized that, how true it is to realize that .............

" o..amar..desher..mati..tomer..tore..thekai ..matha...."....sorry only bangali people can read it :D

we all really love our country so much......but we just hardly got the opportunity to realize that............."

And you know....i find out that our mother toung is so sweet....(misti..in BANGLA)..and some emotions are really hard to express in other langauges but so easy in bangla and its so humourous..that i have to say ...AH..JOSS....

amar Bangladesh.......ami tomake oneeeeeeeeeeeeek ....valo bashi...................:D

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